simple words tonight

i always imagined the day would come when i would see you

at least there was a time when i imagined

and then time moved forward, day by day, week by week, month by month, and year by year

and life happened, the good, the bad, the ugly

lately, over the past year, mostly ugly

there was a time when i would write about everything, openly

but somewhere in this time that has gone by, i closed myself off from that openness

so now, you have no clue, and never will

i keep it all to myself

not that i like it this way, but i have no choice

i had to bring people back into my life , people i didn't want to bring back

but it was necessary

necessary to save her , since i was responsible for giving her life

i take it day by day now and hope it is worth giving up

that dream i once had

one day, it will all be over anyway

this life

the good, the bad, the ugly

then i will be free

see you on the flip side my shining star


(simple words written that you won't understand)