There is that place where earth meets sky off in the distance where you can see no farther, which I call "the fade" .
Sometimes I wish that I could start walking along the beach and keep on walking into the fade .
I wish I could walk into the fade and cease to exist . and when I ceased to exist here on this planet, that there would be nothing waiting on the other side . I wish that once I walked into the fade, all consciousness would cease to exist also, along with this body where it resides while I am here on earth.
And I wish that when I walked into the fade, that all memories of me that are held by others, would cease to exist. And every piece of me I have left behind, would fade away also, so no one could look and say "here she is" or "this was hers" and be reminded of all they hated (or loved) about me.
When it all disappeared the second I walked into the fade, then those who were affected by me, my words, or my actions, good or bad, would have no pain because of my existence .
If only it would be that easy, to fade away, cease to exist without a trace ...
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Simple words written because...
i suspect that, in time, we do fade away in the minds of some ... but probably never by those we moved in some significant way ... so it goes ...
ReplyDeleteyou will never fade away....
ReplyDeleteLove your dark post...who knows, maybe that's unreachable cause each one of us will always live in someone's memory, I think...
ReplyDeleteWe only have this side of the 'fade' ... the other side, if the other side exists, is a mystery. But yeah. Sometimes I just wish it were all erased ... but that would mean that several other lives would be erased. Yeesh ... there is just no easy way to cross the Styxx ...
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